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Month: December 2007

  • Short Story: The Foggy Foggy Dew

    Scroll in Space has some worthwhile stories: the site seems to be down; here is one that was there:

     

    THE FOGGY FOGGY DEW Karen Skowron

     The sound of water splashing woke her
    and she opened her eyes to an unfamiliar whiteness on the moonlit deck outside
    the open cabin door. It was a shallow
    awareness; her head was fuzzy, she could make no sense of the sound or the
    sight. With little difficulty she went
    back to sleep.

     When next she awakened the sun had
    just spread over the horizon across the ocean to give a rare moment of water
    reflected light. Mist scent came in the
    open windows; a gull shrieked. She was
    still facing the door to the deck; it was now closed. She was still clutched to the very edge of the double bed. The mattress was sloping away from her. She was not of an inconsiderable size and
    was accustomed to governing mattress direction.

      The likely reason for the present mattress slope slowly occurred
    to her and she closed her eyes firmly but neither the awareness nor the
    heaviness in her head went away.

     She opened her eyes again and noticed
    the man’s blue shirt on the bathroom door knob, the docksiders neatly side by
    side near the stove. At the same time
    she saw one of her sandals, kicked? thrown? – partway under the sofa. She groaned silently. And panicked. She had to get away.

     In spite of the weight in her head and
    the bulk of her body she slid from underneath the bed cover, got her feet on
    the floor, herself upright and quietly moved toward the bathroom. She pushed the door open, not touching the blue
    shirt. Her back felt less naked than
    her front so she did not turn around but once inside the bathroom she
    noiselessly closed the door with a backward push. At the last minute she turned her head and peered back into the
    fast lightening room. A man was lying
    in her bed staring toward her.

     She locked the door, sat down on the
    toilet, hunched and miserable.

     On the bed Jack took in and let out a
    deep breath as he’d been wanting to do since he’d wakened an hour or so
    before. He wondered what on earth he
    was going to do. He had thought of simply
    getting up and leaving – if he had been sure this woman, Ellen, he thought her
    name was – if he had been sure she had been sound asleep and wouldn’t awaken he
    might have attempted it. But she was lying so still and silent he was not sure
    that she also wasn’t awake.

     He’d thought of tapping her on the
    shoulder and saying, “I’m sorry, but this has been rather a ghastly mistake
    and…” No, that wouldn’t work. She might have taken it personally. She’d been rather in a state last
    night. He, on the other hand, had been
    cold sober. Which was fortunate or
    dismal, depending on how you looked at it.

     Or how Patricia would look at it. The thought of her sent him hurriedly off
    the bed and into a flurry of clothes gathering.

     He had a moment’s debate and then slipped
    off his damp underwear before he put on his jeans. The jeans were new and felt foreign to him. Pulled over his stomach they felt safe but
    tight; under his bulge they felt dangerous if comfortable. They would not seem to sit where his normal
    pants did. The jeans had been
    Patricia’s idea. From the look on her
    face when he tried them on in the store he thought she was holding to the idea
    of casual wear rather than the reality. His body had become rather office-shaped over the years.

     With a swiftness he would not have
    believed himself capable of he got on shirt and socks, tucked the shirt down
    around his bare bottom, zipped his fly very carefully, settled on low-slung
    jeans but tightened his belt a notch. Out
    of habit he bent to tie his shoes but the docksiders did not require this
    attention. They were new too.

     He tried to stuff the underwear into
    his pocket but the jeans were too tight. As he was deciding what to do with the damned thing he heard the toilet
    flush. He dashed across to the window,
    pushed it open wider, picked up a rock from a collection on the sill, wrapped
    the underwear around it and gave it a huge toss out the window and into the
    ocean many feet below.

     Once he had done this he was
    horrified. What if the rock were a
    special keepsake or, lord god almighty, valuable?

     The cabin was built on a cliff and the
    ocean looked deep below. The underwear
    had disappeared completely. Patricia
    had packed for him. She was bound to
    notice the absence of a pair of underwear when they got home and she did the
    laundry. He felt a complete fool. He was obviously not cut out for this sort
    of thing.

     Sitting down on the bed he waited,
    patiently, if not calmly. He had to pee
    desperately but he did not want to relieve himself off the deck as he had in
    the middle of the night. Besides he’d
    splashed his feet and legs trying to aim through the railings.

     The bathroom door opened a few
    inches. Eileen poked her head out and
    they stared at each other.

     “Oh,” she said. “I do know you. I mean, I talked with you last night, didn’t I? I mean, I’m – this – uh, this is an unusual
    situation for me.”

     “Is that a fact.” Jack said.

     “Could you turn around, please?”
    Eileen asked. “I’d like to come out and get dressed.” She was clutching a towel to her but it was not adequate.

     Jack quickly stood up and went to
    stand looking out one of the windows.

     In the bathroom, after several minutes
    with her head in her hands, she’d bent over and looked between her legs. It was not an enlightening experience; the
    action made her head pound so she had stood up, carefully did not look at
    herself in the mirror, washed her face over and over with hot water and then a
    dash of cold. Then she brushed her
    teeth. Then she combed her hair. Risking a look into the mirror she thought
    she looked far better than she felt, which surprised her.

     The bath towel would not wrap around
    her to provide any sort of covering and it did not occur to her to look in the
    hamper where she had stuffed her clothes the night before. She looked down at herself. It had been some time since she’d had to
    care about anyone else seeing her nude. She’d been caught totally unprepared.

     So she cleaned the bathroom sink. It was as she was eyeing the toilet,
    cleanser in hand, that the absurdity of the situation struck her. It was then that she had put away the cloth
    and the cleanser, picked up the towel, and opened the bathroom door.

     “I suppose you think I’m, well, silly,
    to ask you to turn away- when we’ve slept together,” she said to his back. She was having difficulty with the
    brassiere. It was twisted.

     He thought her hesitant speech was
    distress at the circumstances and he tried to help. “We didn’t actually, uh, sleep together,” he said. “We just shared the bed.”

     “Oh.” She needed to consider this. First
    of all, did she believe him? Yes,
    likely. Drat the bra. Now the strap was loose. He didn’t sound righteous, or worse,
    apologetic. So they hadn’t made
    love. Along with relief (unprotected
    sex terrified her) and a bit of regret (if it did happen then she missed it)
    she felt some disappointment. Some men
    found her attractive. Sexy. How come he hadn’t? Or had she put up too much of a fuss? She
    couldn’t remember.

     She could only find the one sandal
    under the sofa. She would discover the
    other, two days later, in her mailbox and wonder if she had put it there the
    night of the barbeque or if the mailman had found it on the road and delivered
    it to her. She never mentioned it.

     “Are you sure?” she asked the man
    still staring obediently out the window.

     “My dear, I did not take advantage of
    you,” he said, mildly, turning around.

     She was looking all around the room
    and he wondered if she would notice the missing rock. He glanced out and down at the ocean but the discomforting sight
    of his underwear floating in the water was spared him.

     “I wasn’t suggesting that,” she said,
    still searching. “I can’t seem to
    locate my glasses.” She didn’t need
    them so much for sight as for confidence.

     He gave a helpful glance around the
    single room that served all functions by clever placement of furniture and
    appliances but his need drove him toward and into the bathroom. “There’s a pair of glasses in here,” he
    called out and passed them to her.

     She took them and was relieved when he
    went back into the bathroom and shut the door. A bit of time to herself would help at the moment. From the fridge she took an Evian water
    bottle and had a few long sips.

     He had seemed a nice man last night
    when she’d gotten talking to him at the barbeque. Harmless. How on earth had
    he ended up in her bed? Just
    sleeping. And why couldn’t she
    remember?

     He came out of the bathroom. He rubbed his stubble; a razor would have
    been nice. Some men were hooked on
    coffee and a cigarette in the morning. He was a pee and shave man, he guessed.

     “I used your toothbrush,” he told her.

     “What!”
     “Just joking. I’m trying to ease the situation. It’s a bit awkward.” He had used her comb.

     “Well, for me too. I don’t bring strange men home to my
    bed. And not remember it.”

     “Well, I don’t go home with strange
    women. And fall asleep in their beds.”

     “So how did it happen – “

     “You were pretty drunk – “

     “I hardly drink at all – “

     “Well, last night – “

     “What was in the punch – “

     “I don’t know. I can’t drink. I don’t think there was anything in the punch.”

     “Well, whatever it was it knocked me
    loonwise.”

     They stood looking at each other.

     “So did you bring me home?”

     “Well, yes, sort of. I saw you – well, lurching off into the
    darkness and I went after you and asked if you were okay. You were quite woozy. I’d talked to you earlier – do you
    remember?” – he went on at her nod – “and you’d told me about your cabin on a
    cliff. I said I’d walk you home. And I did.”

    She
    looked at him, waiting. When he did not
    continue to speak she asked, “And?” sweeping her hand at the bed.

     He shrugged, blew out his cheeks
    slightly. “You – uh, went into the
    bathroom and came out, uh, stark naked, and got into bed. I don’t think you realized I was here,
    then.”

     She looked at him thoughtfully. “And you weren’t driven mad with passion by
    my unclothed body?”

     He’d been looking anywhere but at her
    but now he glanced at her to see if she was serious. There was a bit of a glint in her eye. He raised his eyebrows ambiguously. “I told you I didn’t touch you.”

     “Then why were you waiting
    around? After I went in the
    bathroom? That’s what I’m wondering.”

     “Is that a fact,” he said. “Well, I guess I was just making sure you were all right. I never expected you to do a strip.”

     “And once I got into bed?”

     “Oh, that.” He had to think fast. The
    truth sounded a bit bizarre but he could come up with nothing better. Again he was struck by his unsuitability for
    such an experience. And Patricia
    thought him predictable!

     “I lie down on the bed, fully clothed,
    beside you, on top of the covers. I
    don’t know why.” Well, he did know, but
    he wasn’t about to admit, even to himself, that it was a way of not going back
    to Patricia, or back to a room without Patricia, just then. “Then I must have fallen asleep. I woke up at three or so and it was too late
    to leave, or too early – ha ha. So I
    slipped off my shoes and shirt” – it seemed indiscreet to mention removing the
    tight new jeans – “and went to sleep again.”

     He hadn’t. Gone to sleep. He’d layed
    there in the cinnamon darkness, the breeze murmuring off the ocean, the waves
    steady, regular, soothing. He’d felt so
    incredibly at peace.

     And after awhile he’d become more
    aware of the breathing of the woman beside him on the bed. He’d turned toward her, under the single light
    blanket, eased closer until he was as close as he could get without actually
    touching. He could feel the warmth of
    her body, smell her human aroma.

     At the barbeque he’d been aware of the
    scent of wood smoke about her; it was a haunting smell. In the cabin he had
    realized why she was so perfumed – her stove must leak; the smell of smoke hung
    thick like incense. Close beside her in
    bed he had gotten used to her smoky smell and became aware of her female fragrance.

     At one point he let his hand lightly
    touch the roundness of her buttock. Her
    skin was like the chamois he kept in the glove compartment for windshield
    wiping, soft and yielding.

     And for the first time in a long time
    he’d felt genuine desire, not manufactured, not inappropriately irksome, not
    to-fit-the-occasion. There was no duty,
    no pressure, no guilt. Like a schoolboy
    he’d exalted in his own power and hastily, greedily, satisfied his own need. And was left with wet underpants.

     “So it was you on the deck,” she was
    saying. “I woke up – didn’t know what I
    was seeing.”

     “The bathroom was dark. Outdoors it was lighter,” he explained.

     She didn’t get it. Then she did, and blushed. It embarrassed her more to think of him
    urinating on her deck than sleeping beside her.

     “Would you like some coffee?” she
    asked, moving toward the kitchen part of the room.

     He thought of the bed and breakfast
    place and Patricia and decided the time was not right for returning. “Yes,” he said. “Actually, do you have tea? Or lemon in water?”

     She stared at him. “I’ve got some decaf coffee. I think.”

     “No, it’s just as bad. I’ve got an ulcer or something.”

     “Tea, then? Regular, black?”

     “Sure.” He only drank English breakfast at home in his own special brand
    that kept his insides quiet, but he kept silent.

     She busied herself at the sink and
    stove. “I’m going to make toast, too,”
    she told him. “My stomach needs
    something in it. I’ll kill whoever put
    that in the punch.”

     Suddenly she spun around, startling
    him. “I don’t even know your name.”

     “Jack. And you’re Ellen?”

     “Eileen.”

     “Ah – a mauvoreen.”

     She gave him a puzzled look. “My last name’s Boots,” she replied slowly,
    but she knew this wasn’t what he meant.

     He laughed gently at her frown. “No, I meant an Irish lass. Eileen was my mother’s name. Still is I guess, wherever she is. My name’s actually Seamus but when I landed
    in England at age six or so, to live with an uncle,” he made an unconscious
    face, “a schoolteacher changed me to Jack.”

     “Are you a resident? I’ve not seen you before this and the
    island’s not all that big.” She had a
    toaster with sides that flipped down and she was, for some reason, standing
    with her hand on it, the bread inside, but it not plugged in.

     “I’m on a holiday, actually. I’m staying in a bed and breakfast, The Manor.”

     “Oh, the hoity-toity one. No, I’m kidding, the people are very nice,
    they joke about the name but say it works. I shouldn’t be telling you that.”

     It hadn’t been his idea; Patricia had
    arranged it all. He wasn’t about to
    tell Ellen – Eileen, this.

     “Is that a fact. I’m there with my wife.”

     She unplugged the kettle and turned to
    look at him but he had his head bowed and was staring at his clenched
    hands. She didn’t say anything.

     He wondered if his car was okay in the
    parking lot – it was a field actually, beside the community hall. “Let’s join the locals at the barbeque,”
    Patricia had said.

     Eileen passed him a cup of tea, then
    plugged in the toaster and carefully watched the bread. “I wish they would rewire this place: I can’t plug in two appliances in the
    kitchen at once.”

     He realized he was hungry. The toast came out overdone on one side and
    she let it grow cold before passing it to him along with the butter. He’d gotten used to the American custom of
    buttering it hot.

     “I want some eggs, too,” she said
    suddenly, getting some from the fridge. They were large and golden brown. When he realized she was going to simply break the eggs into the frying
    pan he had to say, “Here, let me do it.”

     She looked at him in surprise. “Really?”

     “Yes, I like to cook.”

     He took her place at the stove. She went to the fridge and had a few more
    sips from the Evian water bottle.

     Then she walked across and looked out
    a window, “Well, will you look at that,” she called out.

     Jack nearly dropped an egg. The underwear was floating all too close to
    his conscience. He went and looked
    out. She seemed to be staring along the
    shore where a boat was just disappearing around a point. “That boat should be banned,” she said but
    he felt she was carrying on a conversation with herself. He went back to the kitchen.

     Suddenly he felt as relaxed as he had
    in the middle of the night. This was
    his element. He got out a bowl, filled
    it with warm water, submerged four eggs. Eggs with fridge chill were unthinkable. 

     Eileen had another sip or two from the
    water bottle and then sat down at the table. “Do you mind if I watch?”

     “No. Why would I mind?
     “Oh, not that you would. My dad used to cook once a year or so and
    make a big production of it. He wasn’t
    at all good at it but we had to pretend he was and act really grateful. I guess it put me off men in the kitchen.

     “Is that a fact.” He had spotted a pot of chives in a pot on
    the floor by the back door. “Well, I’m
    very good at it and I don’t expect applause.” The chives needed water – it looked like she used them for a
    doorstop. He poured a cup of water into
    the dry earth and when he picked a few blades was delighted to discover they
    were garlic chives. He pulled them into
    pieces with his fingers, crushing them as he did so.

     “I’ve got a knife, it’s there – “
    Eileen began.

     “I don’t cut herbs with knives,” he
    told her and divided the chives into three piles. Most people didn’t realize the different flavour available from a
    singe herb in one dish if it were introduced at the proper time.

     “Have you any whole nutmeg?” he wanted
    to know.

     She’d never heard of it. She was feeling a little less woozy and this
    allowed room for a feeling of being found wanting in the cuisine segment of her
    life. “I’ve got licorice root,” she
    stated.

     He stared at her. Did a mental taste. Anise? Hmmmmm.

     “Where is it?”

     Oh god, he would have to want it, she
    thought, pushing herself out of her chair to rummage in a drawer. She’d bought it in the health food store on
    a whim. Some idea of chewing it to
    cover the smell of – whatever.

     She gave it to him. He wiped fluff off, reached down for the
    grater that hung on a nail on a huge log that held most of the kitchen
    utensils.

     When he’d grated some onto the counter
    he wet his little finger, touched it to the pile, then tasted it, looked
    thoughtful. “I don’t think so. But – we’ll see.”

     He found a skillet he thought would
    do; browned the butter slightly, sniffing to determine when it was ready. Then he gently stirred half of one pile of the
    chives into it.

     The eggs were already whisked in two
    bowls, a few drops of water added. Plates were warming in the oven. Eileen was going to tell him she doubted the old china that had come with
    the cabin would take the heat but she didn’t. He was in command.

     He put half of the second pile of
    chives onto the omelette a few seconds before folding it and once it had lost
    its glassy look gently slid it onto the warmed plate. He sprinkled the rest of the herb on and added a dash of the
    licorice. He put it before Eileen with
    a pepper mill. “It won’t need salt,” he
    told her. “The butter’s salted.”

     “I’ll wait until you make yours,” she
    said graciously.

     “You will not,” he practically
    yelled. “This has got to be eaten fresh
    and hot. Now.” He was grinning but he was serious.

     She picked up a fork. “Righty-oh.” The words were an audible, appreciative salute.

     Jack began to make up his omelette
    with the same amount of concentration and detail.

     “This is the best omelette I’ve ever
    eaten,” she said.

     He suddenly felt humble and a little
    shy. The appreciation thrilled him but
    it also bothered him. Patricia tended
    to treat what she had once called, “Jack’s intensity in the kitchen” more with
    amusement than admiration. He was
    unused to such praise. It was
    troublesome, the whole idea. It was an
    “is that a fact” sensation.

     He sat down to eat his. It was a good omelette, the licorice flavour
    pleasant and a bit startling to the palate. Eileen watched him eat, picked at the dry toast she had not eaten, drank
    her third cup of coffee.

     “What do you do for a living?” she
    wanted to know.

     “I’m in sales.”

     “Oh, a joke pusher.”

     “No,” he answered too quickly. It had been a sore point with him over the
    years, this notion that it wasn’t selling ability that moved a product but the
    salesman’s telling of a good story. “Actually I’m in management now.”

     “Oh, a wall pusher.”

     He paused in his eating to look her a
    question.

     “You know,” she explained, “these days
    the economy is such that companies can’t afford huge buildings with lots of
    space where employees can play musical offices in their hierarchy game so they
    have to settle on areas with office dividers, moveable walls. It’s square footage that counts now.”

     He was staring at her, curiously, not
    aggressively.

     “I should know about the importance of
    square footage,” she went on, off on a tangent in an intent to right a stumble,
    “I once sold real estate.”

     “What’s bothering you?” he asked. It was the most sincere asking he had done
    in days, perhaps months, because he really was interested to know. It was easy to give when nothing was
    expected.

     She opened her mouth, closed it. What was the matter with her? And he’d just made her such a nice
    breakfast.

     She knew, of course, what was
    wrong. Women did. But she wasn’t about to try and discuss it
    with a mere man. He’d try to fix it,
    likely as not, tell her what she should do. There was lots wrong. Him,
    here. His wife, somewhere. The relief and the disappointment over the
    shared but not shared bed. And the reason
    she’d had a little too much to drink at the barbeque.

     The fact of the matter was that she’d
    gone into her critical mood last night, as she was frightened she was about to
    do now. The hall had been too hot and
    the outdoor tables were too cool; she’d hated Mrs. Earl’s polyester pant suit
    and felt unfair about her judgment: Mrs. Earl was a nice little old lady and
    should be able to wear what she wanted without such negative, if silent,
    comment from a person she considered a friend. And Eileen had thought the fish overdone, the lamb underdone, and there
    were caraway seeds in the cabbage salad that caught in her teeth. It had gone on and on, her litany of
    grievances. So she’d had a few
    drinks. They helped.

     She must have been well on her way to
    being ‘helped’ by the booze when she talked to Jack because for the life of her
    she couldn’t remember what they talked about. She did remember talking to him, and she seemed to recall being quite
    witty. And uncritical. Glancing at him now she hadn’t realized he was
    so waspish looking, a bulky man, fuzzy around the edges. And the dear guy had made her
    breakfast. She got up and took a few
    more swigs from the water bottle. It
    helped.

     He had asked her what was the
    matter. He had asked. So few did. So she answered. “To tell the
    truth, I want a cigarette. Badly.”

     “Trying to quit, eh?”

     “No – I’ve quit. I can’t smoke. I’d have a heart attack likely if I took one drag.” She raised her left arm and pointed at her
    arm pit. Jack had some idea she was
    indicating her heart. He looked polite
    but puzzled.

     “I’m wearing a nicotine patch. At least I think I still am.” She peered under the mass of her arm. “Yep, it’s still there. I’d want a cigarette a lot harder if I
    didn’t have this. But it makes me
    irritable. I’m – I’m, sorry.” She hadn’t apologized to anyone for weeks,
    possibly years.

     His Irish grandmother had been said to
    have second sight. At times Jack had
    glimpses as well. He suddenly felt the
    kinks in the journey of her life and he put up no defenses, asked her no
    questions, offered no solutions.

     “So, you sell houses for a living?
     “That was ages ago.” She picked up the licorice stick and gave it
    a few hard chews. The nicotine patch
    needed help.

     “I’ve owned small businesses, off and
    on. Sell one. Buy another. It’s made me
    a living.”

     Jack leaned back in his chair,
    unobtrusively let out his belt to a more comfortable notch.

     “I remember now, you were telling me
    last night about a gift shop in – where, Chemainus?”

     “Uh-huh, that was a good effort. I should have held onto it longer. I seem to sell my businesses to people who
    make grand successes of them. Are you
    in Victoria?” She felt not like
    pursuing why she had owned so many fledglings.

     “No, Vancouver. Here on a – “ he paused, laughed, “wild
    weekend. Actually it’s my wife’s
    doing. She’s wanting new
    experiences.” He had a quick wonder at
    whether returning to the bed and breakfast after going off to a party which her
    husband had declined to join and finding that said husband had not returned to
    the bed and breakfast from the barbeque but had gone off to a party of sorts,
    himself, would qualify as a new experience to Patricia. It was a complicated thought and he gladly
    abandoned it.

     “And you?” Eileen was asking. “Do
    you want new experiences?”

     Lord, jaysus, what is this? he asked
    but not aloud. “Oh, that’s a fact,” he
    answered. “I just want to take it easy,
    wind down, I guess.” He was a mere man
    and he’d tell her, if he could, but he had yet to tell himself, that he was
    more and more worried about the betrayal of his body, the stitch in his side
    (oh jaysus, okay, the pain in his chest) when he walked too quickly upstairs,
    the thinning hair, the increased effort for lovemaking, the visits to his more
    and more bemused father. His mother had
    died of her heart when he was six. He
    wanted to somehow stop and consider all this. But it was too scary. And his
    life was so set. And now Patricia
    wanted to “do things.”

     “That makes sense,” Eileen was saying
    and for a tense moment he thought he had spoken all his thoughts aloud, but he
    realized he hadn’t.

     “Well. I’m glad you understand.”

     But she didn’t. “I meant it makes sense to me about your
    wife wanting new experiences.” Being
    the gender that tended to face her own mortality before fearful avoidance of
    the issue forced a life-threatening situation, she understood his wife’s
    willingness to take risks in the middle years. She was going to do it. Some
    day.

     He was understanding of her
    understanding of Patricia’s situation. Living mostly peacefully with a woman for so many years he’d learned to
    be this understanding. His anger came
    out in chest pains.

     “I guess she deserves some fun now,”
    he agreed with past discussions with Patricia. “She stayed home and raised the kids and then never really got a decent
    job.”

     An early butterfly – or was it a moth
    on its way home to bed; Jack could remember which had hairy antennae but on the
    wing it was hard to tell – danced its way in a window and in the way of insects
    who have lived and learned across many generations how to get out of a place
    with open windows, this butterfly (Jack decided on a simpler taxonomy for this
    classification – moths chunky, butterflies slim) hovered over the table for a
    second, turned around, flew back outdoors.

     For an instant the colour of its wings
    had been reflected in Eileen’s eyes and once this was gone the look of
    incredible wistfulness that remained in her – earth bound mortal- fair took
    Jack’s heart away. He had not had many
    such experiences in his life but they had occurred, these gifts of soul.

     “You have a lovely place here,” he
    told her across a lengthening silence as she had taken the sight of the
    butterfly inside herself, lowered her eyes, traced out patterns with her
    thumbnail in the plastic of the place mat.

     “Thank you. It’s not mine. It’s
    actually up for sale and I guess I’ll have to move when it sells.”

     “Too bad you can’t buy it yourself.”

     “Oh, I could. No problem.” This she could explain. A
    mere man would understand. “I own a
    house in Victoria. It was a lucky buy,
    oh, ten or eleven years ago. I was
    flush when I sold, what was it? Oh,
    yes, my massage business. I went around
    to offices and did mini-relaxation sessions, built up quite a clientele and had
    a rapidly increasing staff – what was I saying? Oh yes, also at that time I had a partner with good ideas – seem
    to have had a few of these, come to think of it – and he suggested we buy a
    house. So we did. But he couldn’t come up with his share at
    the last moment, an ex-wife and a messy divorce – so I jumped in and bought it
    on my own. Had to rent out part for a
    few years but it’s paid off. It’s worth a fortune now. It was in a neat area of town that suddenly
    got recognized. A neighbourhood that
    raised its self esteem.” She giggled
    and raised her coffee cup in a mock salute to the self-help term more than to
    the notion.

     “The people who have rented it from me
    this past year – the rent covers the mortgage and my expenses here – have
    offered to buy it from me. So I could
    sell it and buy this place.”

     “Why don’t you?
     She didn’t answer. She got up and took another drink from the
    Evian water bottle in the fridge. Her
    head was feeling much better.

     She sat down again. “Do you think I should?”

     He tested the weight, the direction,
    the impact of the ten-foot pole he felt had been offered him, ready for his
    disclaimer.

     “Yes, I do,” he said.

     “Why?”

     “Because I know absolutely nothing
    about all this. Because my natural
    reaction is caution, not to offer any comment or advice. Because I’d likely rather be wily and
    politely give it all back to you by asking you what you want to do. So I’m really going against the grain to
    say, yes, I think you should.”

     She’d cupped her hands around her
    coffee cup. Her hands were giving the
    cup warmth. She’d listened to his
    response focused on the ‘clouds’ in her coffee but now she looked up at him.

     “Thank-you, Jack,” she said
    simply. She sort of wished she dared
    hold his hands in the circle of hers instead of the cup. But she didn’t dare.

     “Where is your wife?” she then asked,
    answering her own reason for not daring.

     “I suppose at the bed and
    breakfast.” He didn’t want to think
    about what she had done when she found him not in the room. So he put Patricia aside to follow his own
    curiosity.

     “What made you come here, rent this
    place?”

     She laughed. “I’d sold yet another business. This time not so successfully. I
    wanted to do something different so I decided to do nothing for a change. Life on a Gulf Island has always appealed to
    me so I came here – actually it was because I heard there was a business for
    sale that I first came but I resisted, it wasn’t hard, they were asking far too
    much, and then I saw that a cabin was for rent. So I stuck to my original thought of doing nothing. And came
    here. It’s damned hard, doing nothing. I guess I’m used to being busy.”

     “You could be busy fixing this up if
    it was your own,” he found himself saying. He felt she was living someone else’s life in someone else’s house with
    someone else’s furniture and dishes and smoky old stove. It surprised him that he cared.

     Eileen had decided to buy the cabin a
    few seconds after he had suggested that she should. One part of her had already chosen the electrician she’d call to
    give her an estimate on rewiring. And
    she’d – oh – this she could share with a mere man – “if I extend the deck
    around this corner and put a window in that wall I’ll have a view on 360
    degrees. Ocean, mountains and arbutus.

     A car door shut at the bottom of the
    drive, the sound clear and defined on the morning air. 

     “A bit early for company,” Eileen said
    as they both went toward the door.

     Jack did not recognize the car or the
    woman who had gotten out of the driver’s seat – he thought he might have seen
    her at the bed and breakfast – but the person who got out on the passenger’s
    side was Patricia. Both women
    disappeared behind bushes as they navigated the drive and started on the
    pathway up the hill to the cabin.

     “It’s my wife,” Jack said. His voice gave nothing away. There was nothing much to give. He wasn’t really surprised that the ‘bush
    telegraph’ of the island had somehow located him. Likely someone had seen him going to Eileen’s assistance and
    passed it on. He was glad, deep down,
    that Patricia had found him, was coming to claim him. This was familiar.

     But where would it go from here. He had reached the edge of vulnerability.

     He stared at Eileen. She did not let a mere man down, especially
    one who had made her breakfast, asked her truly what was wrong, given her a
    cabin and, she was sure, had made silent, passionate love to her in the night
    because she was such a desirable woman.

     She touched his arm lightly. “You slept there, on the deck in the
    hammock, after helping me home last night because, because I’d had too much –
    “ Well, she’d almost said it. She’d say
    it to his wife because then it didn’t have to be true, it could be part of the
    other lie, about where he’d slept.

     He brushed her hand gently as she drew
    it away from his arm and aimed a quick kiss which missed her cheek and landed
    on the side of her nose. She smelled
    like wood smoke and licorice and gin. Then he stepped further onto the deck just as he heard Patricia and the
    woman reach the top of the path and he gave the hammock a quick shake. To free it from any telltale dew.